October 2009
“You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling unless they tell you, and usually they lie. You ask them, “What’s wrong?” and they say “Nothing.” You accept this because its easier than digging for the truth. People smile when they want to cry, they laugh when they want to scream and shout. They pretend like nothing is wrong because they dont want to face the truth. Things aren’t always rainbows and butterflies, sometimes you gotta scream and cry your angers and sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in for so long before something in you snaps. So when you want to cry, cry. when you want to scream, scream. Don’t hide behind fake smiles, its ok to not be alright.”
—Unknown (via kidlovesdoodles)
I wonder if there's rainbow coloured nail polish. If there is, I would buy it, definately.
Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.(on the cheek?)
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.Collected something really stupid.Gone to a rock concert.Helped someone.Gone fishing.Watched four movies in one night.Been dumped.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.Been in a car accident.(super minor though)
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself. (accidentally)
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.Cried yourself to sleep.Flown on a plane.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.Written a 10 page letter.Gone skiing.
Been sailing.Cut yourself.Lost someone you loved.
Had a best friend.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.Fired a gun.
Had an online diary.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.Gone to sea world.(well, underwater world)
Attempted suicide.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.Written poetry.Gone to Europe.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.Used a coloring book over age 12.Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.Had a hamster.Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.Had something pierced.Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.
You know what I need? A quiet spot with lots of pillows, all alone with a good book and soft music in the background. That way, I can escape.
My ulcers hurt.
“Your prince will come. He may not be riding a white horse, or have a big castle.
But he will want you, and only you, and that will be better than any fairytale.” —Unknown (via kidlovesdoodles)
But he will want you, and only you, and that will be better than any fairytale.” —Unknown (via kidlovesdoodles)
“There are always sides. There is always a winner, and a loser. For every person who gets, there’s always someone who gives.”
—My sister’s keeper/Jodi Picoult
I'm feeling what I felt few months back. Sort of an emptiness in me which I don't know how to describe. The feeling of always being second best. Perhpas this feeling will pass tomorrow?
